He reached for a glass of lukewarm tea, but his hand stopped. On the table lay a small, white pill and a copy of a poem by Boris Ryzhy. He knew the lines by heart now. Living is difficult and expensive, but dying is easy and free. The irony was the only thing that made him smile lately, a sharp, jagged twitch of the lips.
He turned away from the world and laid back down on the bed. The song looped, the jagged guitar riff cutting through the static of his thoughts. The "Sudno"—the bedpan, the vessel, the end. He closed his eyes, letting the cold waves of the synthesizer wash over him until the room, the city, and the gray sky finally dissolved into the beat. He reached for a glass of lukewarm tea, but his hand stopped
The room was the color of a bruised sky. Egor sat on the edge of a bed that felt like it was made of damp cardboard. Above him, a single lightbulb flickered with the rhythm of a dying heart, casting long, jittery shadows against the peeling floral wallpaper. Living is difficult and expensive, but dying is
He looked at the rotary phone on the floor. It hadn’t rung in three weeks. He didn't expect it to. The song looped, the jagged guitar riff cutting
He leaned his forehead against the cold glass of the window. Down below, a man in a heavy coat was trying to start an old Lada. The engine coughed, sputtered, and died. The man didn't curse or kick the tire. He just sat there, staring through the windshield at nothing. Egor understood.